last weeks doctor appt

(cycle 15, day 23, 9dpo)

i didn't exactly get the response i was hoping for from doc, but it also wasn't surprising.

she remarked that since we were passed the year mark of TTC that we could go for testing, but she would like us to try for another 6 months given that we haven't been regularly BDing and she thinks that will do the trick. if we want to go ahead with the testing, we can, but she'd rather not since the way she put it "they tell what to do and when to do it" and basically takes the fun out of BDing. so if we go ahead with testing, that means blood tests for both of us (not something i ever look forward given i hate needles and tense up like mad when i do have to have them) and a sperm analysis for DH in the city (which means him having to take time off work). not sure we want to go this route, but i haven't had a chance to talk to him about everything my doc said since he's been pretty busy doing other shit and hasn't even asked about it (yes, i'm slightly bitter at the moment at the lack of attention i get from him lately).

so other than discussing our options, she also recommended that i stop tracking everything and just de-stress about everything TTC. which coming from a doctor is a little weird and totally pissed me off cuz that's just not what you say to someone who's been trying for so long (even though their DH hasn't been). you can't just stop tracking and turn your brain off after you know so much already. how do you train yourself not to count cycle days? and if anything, half the reason i do any tracking is so that i'm not surprised by the arrival of AF but above all else, i ABSOLUTELY FUCKING HATE getting surprised by her and not being prepared and have a mess to deal with. knowing exactly when i O gives me peace of mind and means i'm more than prepared and have taken precautionary measures to avoid said mess. then i cried in her office which to her translated into being stressed and an even bigger reason to stop tracking and just be care free for the next 6 months and pretty much prescribed regular BDing every week for those next 6 months. i honestly don't see that happening and i'm totally prepared to tell DH that if he has an issue with that, then he better figure out how to fix it even if that means seeing a doctor. afterall, they're doctor's orders  : P

i also got a chance to ask her about continuing jogging when i finally do end up pregnant and she said it was fine as long as i keep my core temp down and can still maintain a conversation while doing so. i was happy about that because i've heard that some docs don't want you to continue such a strenuous excercise, but since i'm not introducing anything new, it's totally fine.

so i guess that's about all that can be said about the appointment and i hope i can get pregnant very soon because i sure don't want to have to put more stress on DH by having to go ahead with testing...