No Baby.... Yet

(cycle 6, day 8)

I should've known better than to have been caught up in thinking I was pregnant. I've just been so hopeful that if it was somewhat timed right, it would happen easily.

Damn my mother for giving me false hope because I'm a "Kennedy". Just because half my body are her genes, doesn't automatically mean I will be just as fertile as she was, or my grandmother was, or my great grandmothers were. Half my genes are from my dad. If she didn't get her tubes tied, she'd have a lot more kids right now like my great grandmothers (one had 8 and the other 15!). My grandpa had a vasectomy so they wouldn't have more kids. Basically, if they wanted one, the most it took was a month or two.

My dad's side, I don't really know if they were a fertile bunch or not. There was just the two of them for my memere.... One of my cousins took 8 months to get pregnant and she had a miscarriage at 5 months a few years before that sweet little boy.

I guess I shouldn't be hoping something will happen if we don't actually give it an honest try. If it did happen, I'd say I'm fertile Myrtle since it would've been a one shot deal, but it didn't. Of course I was bummed when AF showed up, not surprised, just bummed.

So with this new cycle, I've started using a basal thermometer in hopes that it reads my temps more clearly and they aren't as erratic so its clearer when I ovulate. I still have to wait til at least next weekend to find out if it does the job or not and then wait another 2 weeks on top of that to find out if we do the job right this cycle. At this point, I'm almost hoping it doesn't happen so that I don't have to deal with possible pregnancy symptoms on our vacation (morning sickness would just plain suck to have during that week) but I don't want to wait yet another month for it to happen. And if it did happen in the next cycle and not this one, I don't want a Christmas baby and it would be all to likely if we wait a month....

Ahhhh!!! This whole baby making business is just so frustrating  :-(