can't help it

(cycle 31, day 25, 10dpo)

I can't help but symptom hunt, dammit! I was trying my best to not do it, but I did anyway. last night and today, my boobs are particularly more tender than normal in the 2ww. like I actually have to hold them in place when running up or down the stairs. I haven't had to do that in quite a while, like about a year ago I think. I've also been having more cramping than normal. I can't help be feel, yet again, convinced that this cycle worked. but aside from most cycles, unless I end up with more tests before the weekend, I won't be testing til Tuesday. that would give AF a good chance to show up on time and not be frustrated searching for any hint of a line on an obvious BFN.

why do I do this to myself every. single. cycle.?