a TTC standstill...

(cycle 27, day 23, 8dpo)

i went to my yearly physical today. boy do i hate crying in the doctors office  :-/
i was fine until we started talking more about TTC.

she now understands that NTNP pretty much equals a shot in the dark at getting pregnant since we only BD once a week or every other week when we aren't actively trying. with the way my cycles have been, i O on the same weekday every cycle. so say if O is always on a monday, we have to BD at some point between friday and monday. tuesday to thursday would be entirely useless, so we'd have to never BD on any of those days if we want any kind of chance any given cycle. BDing 2 days in one week is DH making an effort in the BDing department. its entirely frustrating, but its what i have to work with.

she also agreed that it is possible that its a hormone imbalance with DH if his sex drive is as low as i say it is. something like that could be a very easy fix. who knows, maybe that is our issue and all it would take is some hormone supplements and we'd be pregnant very quickly after that. this is the biggest reason i don't want to put off infertility testing much longer than we already have. if it is something simple that is an easy fix with meds, then why waste time on fruitless efforts in the meantime?

this cycle i was going to let DH off the hook an extra day or two before BDing, but then i got a headcold and he was on his man-period, so nothing happened til O day. she did make the suggestion of laying off him the few days before i'm fertile and then trying to make magic happen in the days i'm for sure fertile (thank god for a more regular cycle!) so there's a better chance, which is pretty much what my new plan was.

my doc was also encouraged with the fact that i have been able to concieve once on my own. i'm not comforted by that fact as i've seen too many women suffer loss after loss after loss and were able to conceive those babies naturally. so i don't see the merit in being able to acheive it on our own if that's no guarantee that we will conceive again and who's to say we won't have to go through another MC?

aside from that, we're waiting until we're done with the addition and moved into our new bedroom before resuming actively TTC. i'm not thrilled, but i can't exactly ask for more from DH than he's already doing. it sucks, but at least there's that small chance to hang onto this cycle as well as a relaxed vacation next cycle to possibly allow for some baby making fun towards the end of a relaxing week. if those don't work, at least there's only one or two more cycles that TTC would have be put on hold for, otherwise this "break" would feel a lot longer. so i'm hoping that by may, if it hasn't happened for us yet, DH will be willing to at least find out if there are any issues. it would take a cycle or two to get all the preliminary testing anyway, so that buys him another month til finding out if there is something wrong with one or both of us.