(cycle 27, day 2)
yet again AF showed up unwelcomed.
i'm getting worn out, exhausted, frustrated, and in general, ready to quit until we can get testing done to get some answers as to wtf is wrong and what is preventing us from conceiving. obviously i'm not going to just quit TTC because who knows, maybe one of the next 2 cycles before testing will be the lucky one for us. but if history has shown us anything, it won't be. its just that possibility that it could be that has me still wanting to attempt anything. fuck do i hate this process with a passion lately.
so this cycle, i'll be foregoing temping and just doing OPKs. they have been reliable for me before, and the second last time i did this, we made a baby (it didn't work for us in may when i tried it, but did back in december). i'm hoping the next 2 cycles will be exactly like the last 4 (O cd14/15 and AF on cd26-28 with a 12/13 day LP) which is pretty damn regular for me compared to before. i think the low dose aspirin is helping. its made the last 2 cycles exactly the same and even extended my LP an extra day. if just doing OPKs doesn't work this cycle, i'll be ditching all of it because there's no point when we'll be on vacation for most of my fertile time (we might be back home by O day). maybe that will do the trick. idk anymore.
so doc appt at the end of this month. 3 weeks from now... i just want some damn answers :-/
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