lost track

(cycle 34, 2dpo)

I've already lost track of exactly which cycle day i'm on, lol. I could count the actual number, but i'd rather not. dpo count is easy since it was only Monday when I Od...

I don't have more optimism after our break. probably due to the fact that in 34 cycles, we didn't have a shot in hell in probably 12 of those cycles, so the number where we actually had a chance is down to 22. out of those 22 cycles, I only got pregnant once. not very good odds. so yeah, not optimistic. I think at this point, if I ever get to get see another BFP, i'll be in complete and utter shock. a very welcome surprise, but dumbfounded by shock. that's how much i'm not expecting us to ever get pregnant  :-/