I'm doing a little better than last time, but there are certain things that just tear me apart. Physical things at the moment, like my boobs barely fitting into my bras or my stomach still looking nearly 3 months pregnant. I put on a pair of pre-pregnancy jeans yesterday and wondered why it felt like they were constantly falling down. It wasn't until I changed into yoga pants and got a look of myself in the mirror and realized how big I still was. Did that ever hurt. Back to my WW diet after this weekend to get back my body.
Things like that are a knife to the gut. If I had just had a baby, fine, I'd be okay with it. But I didn't. So it makes the hurt so much worse and gives me a daily reminder of what we lost. I don't want to be wearing my pregnancy clothes but a lot of my pre-pregnancy stuff still doesn't fit.
I just want to get back to 'me'. l also want my baby, but that feels like a pipe dream now : (
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