New Tattoo

it's been over 7 years since I got a tattoo and the only reason I kept waiting was because I wanted to see how my body stretched out during pregnancy since all the ones I was wanting to get I was going to get on either side of my lower back (in favour of keeping them in areas easily hidden for work). after so much waiting, I said fuck it and finally got a new one. one to symbolize our angel babies.

I decided to get the due date birth month flowers of both our babies. getting on to symbolize the month they were conceived, or the month they were lost didn't quite seem right (especially since the day of the D&Cs were a different month than when they were actually no longer a viable pregnancy. so due date just felt right and appropriate. DH was a little confused why I didn't get any dates on it, but it didn't feel right including those for the same reasons why I chose the due date month. I love it and its beautiful!

debating getting a bit more colour put in it, but i'll wait til its healed to make that choice. for now, its super itchy since its started healing. I remember my first tattoo being itchy when it started healing, but I didn't remember how long after getting it that it started, so kept waiting for it to start, but it didn't til about the 3rd day, now its driving me crazy, lol. I also didn't remember the first one hurting that much during the actual tattooing, but it was also just line work, no having to go back to do shading or colour. after the first hour, it started hurting more because it felt like she was working on the same spot for a half hour and my jaw was getting sore from the way I was laying... after an hour and a half, and about my breaking point when I just needed a quick 5 minute break to stretch, she had me sit up to take a look at it to see if she needed to do anything more to it. I was surprised she was done already because when I went for the consult, she guessed it would take about 3 hours, so I was bracing myself for another hour and a half of work, lol.

i'm so happy with it and am not bothered that not all my shirts will cover it. its not something I want to cover up all the time and something I can have with me all the time to remember them. I can also add to it if we end up with more losses, something that as much as I don't want to have happen, was a requisite for the tattoo because of our TTC struggles. after we have kids, i'll get another one on the other shoulder for our living babies.

a little something DH texted me after I asked him if he would be bothered seeing this everyday:

"no... I will be reminded of how much we

love each other and no matter what we run into

we will always work together to get through"