(cycle 29, day 16, possibly 1dpo)
apparently my egg intolerance is a hit and miss thing. last week, after having eggs 2 days in a row and having the same cramps the same amount of time after eating them was a 2 time thing. i had eggs again this week and i didn't get all crampy. i figure if i'm going to give up such an easy thing to make in a pinch, i better double triple quadruple check that it the intolerance is here to stay. but its not, for now anyway, so that's good : )
as for possibly being 1dpo, i'm not sure WTF happened. i've always Od the day after a positive OPK, like clockwork. i had an almost positive OPK on cd13 and then on cd14 it was a no-doubt-about-it positive OPK. in all my past cycles using the cheapie OPKs, the following day was O day and the past few cycles i've even felt O cramps that coincided with this. on cycles where i've only used OPKs and forewent temping, AF always showed up when expected, not a day later to give any indication that O would have been 2 days after a positive OPK... so i don't know what to do. there's nothing i really can do. if today is O day, then we have O-4 and O-2. i was hoping for better than that for once. if yesterday was O day, then we would've had O-3 and O-1, i like those odds a lot better and if that were the case, i wouldn't care about about our timing because its pretty damn good. this always fucking figures. i think we have it in the bag for the cycle and then something happens (like Oing a day later) to shatter those hopes of it being the cycle. i can't win.
i'd love to fastforward 1.5 weeks and get a BFP so i can feel like all this worrying and freaking out will be for nothing and i can laugh at how ridiculous i'm being. but now i'm sure i won't be getting a BFP and this was all a waste. its all a waste anyway. i don't see us getting pregnant in the next 3 months anyway, that's just our luck these days. 2011 used the last of our luck... and i thought this year was going to be our year...
ugh.
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