boudoir!

(cycle 30, day 3)

yep, you read that right, AF showed up, on time (well on time according to OPKs, CM and my intuition, not according to temps). of course i tested friday, saturday and sunday because i'm a POAS-aholic. heh. i'm remaining a little hopeful that technically it only took 6 cycles once we were actively TTC to finally get pregnant. its now been 7 cycles (i'm on #8) since the MC that we've actively TTC, albeit sporadically, so i'm still a little hopeful that all it will take is some consistent BDing every cycle and we should finally see a BFP. IDK if i'm being ridiculous in being that kind of hopeful, but we'll see i guess.


this past weekend i went out on a limb and did a boudoir shoot. it was something i was thinking of doing lately after losing that weight with WW, but i had been waiting because i didn't want to be pregnant and doing it since then i'd have a lovely bloat that wouldn't look nice in pics (you know, that uncomfortable stage of pregnancy where you know you're pregnant, but others would just think you had a few too many treats?) and i also didn't want to be too pregnant because i want to remember my body as it is now, pre-kids. something i can look back on after having kids to motivate myself to lose the extra padding and get back to the shape i'm in now, which is the best shape i've been in all my life. so i saw that this amazing photographer (here: http://www.nicoleashley.ca/ & here: https://www.facebook.com/#!/nicashleyphoto) had a couple openings for her next marathons so i kind of just jumped at the chance. what sold me is her style of photography, her team of stylists that do hair, makeup and pick out your "looks". it was so nice to feel pampered and then get gorgeous pics taken, i felt SEXY AS HELL! those ladies know what they're doing and they make you feel so comfortable. so far, all i've seen is a headshot preview, but it made me so excited to see the rest of them  : )  i keep stalking the FB page hoping to see something of mine, but then i remember this was supposed to be a total surprise to DH and she knows that so some ladies don't want anything shared before giving them to their loved ones (myself included) so i have to keep reminding myself of that. i've been wanting to show him the pic since i got it because i love it so much, lol. its taking everything so save it for when i was intending for him to see them. i'm planning on showing them to him this coming cycle when i'm fertile to help give him a little motivation, so i'm just hoping i get the DVD in time for this since that will be a couple days before Vday... every woman seriously needs to do photos like this with an experienced photog. i gained so much self confidence in those 3 hours, if i had a never ending supply of money, i would do this all the time, haha. i won't be posting a pic until after DH sees them since i don't want anyone to inadvertently see them and he somehow see them (i have no idea how that would happen, but i'm not taking chances!). so for now, they're between my photog and me. i'll definately post a non-incriminating one once i get them  : )