reconsidering

yesterday I had a sudden feeling like we shouldn't be completely avoiding pregnancy over these 2 months... maybe its all the BFPs I've seen lately... maybe I'm just coming to terms with a possibility of missing my BFs wedding... idk. but yesterday I had this feeling like we should NTNP these 2 cycles and let whatever is going to happen, happen. I mean, what are the chances I'd conceive anyway? given my track record for conceiving, its highly unlikely until we get closer to 8 ttc cycles post-MC anyway, so I have incredibly low hopes of it happening during these cycles. I'm not sure how I'd feel if it did happen and then my plans of being in my BFs wedding basically go out the window, though there's also a chance I'd MC again so it wouldn't matter if I got pregnant.

I still have yet to tell DH how I'm feeling and what I'm thinking and I'm already almost post-O this cycle being that I'm cd14 already. I wouldn't make a point about BDing when I'm fertile, just if the mood strikes us when I am to take advantage of it instead of wasting it. it would get us closer to 8 cycles post-MC faster... seeing as how we're 4 cycles of ttc out of 6 post-MC now...


*it took 16 & 18 cycles both pregnancies, but there was only a chance of anything happening in 8 & 11 cycles respectively both times (the 8th & 11th cycles being the successful ones, if you can call it that) so that's why I'm inclined to think we'll take that long each time*