trying to be optimistic

(cycle 43, day 7)

my body is at least showing more positive signs than last cycle and I'm only a week into it. last cycle, I had basically nothing in the CM department, this cycle, I'm already seeing creamy stuff, so that's got to be good right? just hoping I see some promising CM when I'm fertile  ; )

I'm trying to be optimistic about us conceiving and having it stick and turn into a THB, but its hard. I just feel kinda "meh" about it and trying not to get my hopes up too high so that I don't have as far to fall when things crash and burn. I really don't want this to take much longer, I honestly don't know how much more I can take before I just call it quits. maybe i'll have renewed hope when our house is done and we can relax more, we'll see. thankfully its only another 5-8 weeks....