I don't know what to do with myself. maybe i'm subconsciously easing myself into being healthier?
I have had 0 self control when it comes to food lately. knowing I was starting at the gym last night, I went and bought a bag of chocolate covered pretzels at lunch yesterday (my biggest weakness). I've eaten more than half the bag already in 24 hours. maybe my mind is trying to get to slowly make changes to its not as hard to maintain the changes. like starting at the gym this week and then the diet will follow next week. I seriously wish I could stop doing this to myself. I don't feel sexy anymore. I feel like a blob : (
I have been much better about water intake this week. I guess that's two steps out of the way, the only one left is my eating habits. maybe I need to start with WW again as much as I was hoping I could just do this myself since I know what I have to do, i'm just having a hard time getting it going.
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so last night my mom and I had our first session at the gym. we only did one set of everything just to go through form and how the machines work, but i'm feeling it today. i'm not dying and I can walk up/down the stairs without wincing in pain, a good hurt. i'd like if there was more cardio worked into the routine, but i'll have to work it in myself. like run 10 minutes to warm up, work on the legs, run for another 10 minutes, work on the arms, another 10 minutes of running, abs, and finish with another 10 minutes of running. that way I should pretty much always have a good sweat going and i'm incorporating something I love doing, running. I've also got to get out more at home with hayhay.
i'm getting there, slowly, but i'm getting there.
fingers crossed my diet will follow.
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