Waiting for AF

(cycle 35, day 29 - cycle 36, day 1)

and now begins the wait for AF to start up again. only thing is, I have no idea when to actually expect her. because of the MC, my hormones could be totally out of wack and the hcg from the pregnancy could take a while to leave my system (though I feel like if the baby died at 7w and I carried for another 4, the hcg probably totally left my system) preventing O from happening. from some research and other's experiences, you basically don't O until the hcg leaves, which can take up to 4 weeks, hence the typically longer cycles following MCs.

last time, I basically had a regular cycle, well within my norm at the time, just on the longer end of that norm. but this time I got so much further in the pregnancy, so would this cycle be proportionately longer? IDK. I feel like i'm in store for a regular cycle because of my CM, but since I skipped temping and OPKs this cycle, that's the only thing I can really go on, which I felt I wouldn't be able to totally trust since its possible I could have fertile looking CM when I would normally have it, but maybe not O yet and still be a couple weeks away from that. I haven't noticed as much fertile CM since then, but its possible its still coming.

so i'm feeling slightly unprepared for AFs arrival. I don't have a ton of supplies on hand, but I don't normally have to carry provisions on me for 2-4 weeks straight, normally just a couple days. this doesn't feel like a typical 2ww, probably because I have such low hopes of getting pregnant again quickly based on what's happened in the past. I want to get pregnant quickly, but who knows what my body will even do next time. I want to be pregnant and get past the first tri so I can actually enjoy it instead of waiting for the red death to start...


ETA: I know my body too damn well. I wasn't counting on what I thought was my fertile time to actually be my fertile time since I was fresh from a MC... but yet, there was AF, ready and waiting for me exactly when I would have expected her if I was right.