uncharted territory

i think I've only had one other cycle where I was temping that my temp was oddly up a lot higher than ever before so late in the 2ww, but that was almost 2 years ago... and it wasn't as high as today's temp. today's temp is a record, and looking back at really old charts, I've only gone over 36.8 less than 5 times in over 2 years but never higher than around 36.9 and twice I went up 36.97ish. but again, those are really old charts. I did a few chart overlays so I could compare this temp to every since one of my charts and it sticks out like a sore thumb. I was incredibly hopeful this morning which is the opposite of what I was expecting to feel before waking up.

I've never had a temp as high as 37.00 I had to do a double take when I saw the number. I was totally expecting my temp to plummet today as it always does in the 2ww at 11dpo so because my temp went so far in the other direction, I tested. I'm regretting that decision now since it looks like a bfn and now dh thinks I'm stressing myself out by temping, which is not what's happening. I didn't get to test in secret like I normally do since I got so excited over a high temp I totally forgot to let the dog out, so I dipped the test and left it all on the counter to let her out and when I got to the bottom of the stairs, dh was on his way upstairs, where all the test stuff was out in the open, so didn't have a chance to hide it from him. he asked if I had to throw it out, so I said yes since I didn't see anything other than white where the second line would be and I told him why I tested (because my temp was way up and that never happens) and he interpreted that as though I'm stressing out about my temps. if anything, my temps are helping me stay sane since its helped me pinpoint O when everything else going on with my body is making it impossible to figure out. if I assumed my body was doing what it did the last two cycles (O on cd14 and a 12 day LP) I would be freaking out about AF being 5 days late already and bitching about how my body is messed up, like it was a few cycles ago. that's the reason I started temping again, I couldn't make sense of my body but my temps made sense for me.

so because I had a bfn, I'm kind of expecting today's temp to have been a fluke and tomoro's will be back down towards my coverline and i'll expect to see AF over the weekend instead of being scared shitless that we finally got pregnant again. only time will tell, but tomoro morning seems so far away!