still not hopeful

(cycle 48, day 25, 9 dpo)

temping is keeping me somewhat rational. as rational as one can be when TTC... I haven't had any major cramping, but I've been aware of my pelvis for the last few days, which sounds really weird when you say it... lol. its not really cramping, but a very slight pressure in my lower abdomen. I'm not even sure if its actually there or if I'm once again just hoping so hard to feel something that I'm now imagining it. my temps have been average once again. no major dips or jumps, just the same ol' same ol'. which has me thinking we're out this cycle. I would think I'd see something in my chart by now. I know its possible that if this is the lucky cycle, implantation might not have even happened yet and I've still got a couple days for it to happen before assuming anything. I'm hoping to be surprised by a late AF and bfp next week, but I doubt it. as long as my temps are staying in the average zone, I probably wont' even bother testing until next Thursday if AF hasn't shown up. she's due either Tuesday or Wednesday, so Thursday would definitely be considered late, Wednesday evening would be late... ugh, I really hate the 2ww, actually all of it because its taken us longer than probably 80-90% of couples ttc.