Smallville

we finally got caught up on all our shows (we d/l a good chunk of our shows and had a pretty good stock pile built up at the end of tv season and it took us three weeks to get around to watching the last 3 episodes of Smallville) and save Smallville for last since it's our all-time favourite show.

it was the series finale *tear* and IMO it did the Superman franchise justice. i just wish they would keep all the actors from the series for the upcoming superman movie next year. i don't think it will be the same after watching tom welling, erika durance and michael rosenbaum play those roles. sure, kevin spacey did an awesome job as lex luthor in Superman Returns, but after watching the series, it was weird having that age gap between clark and lex in the movie as oppose to the smaller age gap in the tv show.

the series did an aweome job with the transition of Smallville's Clark Kent/Kal-El to Superman/Man of Steel. especially finally letting him fly and don the tights for the first and only time of the series even though they've been taunting us for the last season on when he was finally going to do so. and having lex come back at the end was almost as epic as having the Superman theme music play at the end of the episode when clark has made the final transition to the superhero everyone knows. just as awesome: the end credits resembling the way the credits are in the movies.

now to watch the entire series of that 70's show before i watch the entire smallville series again... : )

Taking a Break (so to speak)

(cycle 9)

well i'm not going to be a mom just yet. and just so i don't get myself worked up about timing everything right, i'm taking a break from tracking temps and what cycle day i'm on. maybe this will help, maybe it won't but we'll see in a month or so if it does us or me any good.
i don't know if i could handle being one of those couples who have to try for years to ever be successful at getting pregnant. i think it tear me to shreds if it takes much longer than it already is and there is only so much one person can do...

New Spectacles

 (cycle 8, day 33)

I picked up my new glasses last night. They are awesome, well I mean as awesome as glasses can get.

I've been getting a dull pain near my eyes so I figured it was time to get my eyes checked out and do something about it than have a headache everyday. It started just before we went to Mexico, but the break from my computer for 9 hours a day helped it go away for a while. It started back up 3.5 weeks ago, so I made an appointment, got them checked, picked out some frames and finally got them in my possession yesterday : )


They're super cute and fit my face perfectly (as per the ladies at the optometrists who helped me pick some out, lol). Now I just have to get used to them, which I think I have now and haven't gotten that dull pain yet either. I just have to get used to the transition from not wearing them to wearing them and how long it takes for my eyes to adjust. It'll happen, but at least its taking care of the pain. Yay!

I Just Want to be a Mom, Is That Too Much to Ask?

(cycle 8, day 19)

i'm starting to wonder if i'll ever ovulate this month. that temp spike on sunday was because of my complete lack of sleep the night before. it bums me out because i just wanted to ovulate and baby dance at the right times, get pregnant and not have to worry about trying again until we decide have baby #2 and just BD whenever. this may not be the case anymore : (
i just want to have a baby of my own. my sister-in-law is probably moving sometime in the next couple months so i won't have my neice to cuddle and spoil anymore. my good friend is having hers in 2 months but i don't see her enough to get my fill of babies to help calm my baby-on-the-brain. i wish i had someone else in the same situation that i knew really well to talk to about this. i have the girls on 'mommyhood' (a facebook app) but i don't know any of the them personally or even as a cyber friend to really like someone understands what i'm going through right now.
at this point in time, if this isn't our month, i'm really considering giving up on having kids, and it hurts tremendously to say that. it's getting harder and harder to see AF come to town when i want so badly for her to take an extended vacation. i just want it to be our turn! what hurts almost as much as not being pregnant already is that hubby doesn't see how much it hurts me that i'm not already. i don't know what to do anymore. i want to say that we're going to stop thinking about (well more like i'm going to stop thinking about it) and just let it be for the next couple months, but how do you stop counting your cycle days? because i know i ovulate between CD 15 and 18, i have a hard time not paying attention to the calendar to know what day i'm on so i know if we should be BDing or not and when AF should be showing up because we didn't BD at the right time. it's like my own form of hell.
i give up. this is supposed to be an exciting time in our lives and it's starting to feel like a nightmare...

Hopefully This is Our Month!

(cycle 8, day 16)

our chances of actually getting pregnant this month are looking pretty good right now. i'm just waiting to see when FF will say i O'd so that i can count down the days til i can test. today's temp can't really be relied on since i barely slept last night let alone a full 3-4 hours before having to temp and it was not at the same as i temp during the week. the next 2 days will tell me for sure.

i'm hoping i can stay busy enough for the next 2 weeks (during my 2WW) that i will be able to keep my mind off of actually being in the 2WW so i don't drive myself crazy. i know i'm still going to be analyzing every single little symptom until the day comes that i can test and get a BFP or AF shows up. we're women, we can't help it, especially if you have access to internet at the office and they don't monitor your usage (or your boss doesn't have a view of what's on your screen from his desk... but that's another issue).

i just really hope we've done it this time because i'm sick of being dissappointed every time AF shows up even though i know it's inevitable because we don't BD at the right times. this cycle will be the first that's not wasted. *crossing fingers this works*