(cycle 31, day 1)
yep, AF showed up. i was so optimistic this cycle and confident i'd get a BFP, that i think i jinxed myself. even a BFN on 10dpo didn't deter me or drag me down. i've never had this good of an attitude during my 2ww ever. not until last night when i had some AF cramping around 10pm. i was going to test this morning because i wasn't expecting AF til tomoro (though now that i think about it, i didn't take the baby aspirin during my 2ww, so i'm not surprised i had a 12 day LP since that's what it was before the baby aspirin). since the cramps weren't accompanied by spotting, i remainded hopeful, but not optimistic like i was. i had more cramping in the middle of the night that woke me up, hope = gone. when i got out of bed this morning, i was surprised to see that AF hadn't yet shown up. i was ready to test, i collected my pee, still no AF. went to wipe, and there she was. damn.
so i guess my plan is to attempt one more cycle before taking at least 2 months off so we don't miss out on going east next xmas. i'm hoping that if this last ditch effort to have a baby before xmas works, otherwise, towards the end or just after our break, we'll start fertility testing. something i was hoping to avoid, but is starting to feel like i'm not going to be that lucky :-/
Monday, February 25, 2013
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
slow
(cycle 30, day 24, 8 dpo)
unfortunately i wasn't able to keep up with being oblivious to what day i'm on. but i'm trying to keep telling myself that any symptoms i may have don't really mean anything since i have them every cycle and AF shows up every cycle. so far, i think that's working. i don't have an urge to test like i do every cycle we have a shot, so that's good.
i'm trying my best to avoid testing until at least next tuesday as long as there isn't any spotting and AF hasn't shown up. i'm waiting until at least 12dpo to test because that's usually when any symptoms i may have had, start to disappear. i was pretty symptom-less last year when i got a BFP other than an obvious cramp around 6dpo, and i think i had those same cramps around the same time this time, but i'm sticking with not assuming anything so i don't get my hopes up.
i know i haven't been posting much about anything else lately, but DH always has a hard with winter around this time every year so he's not feeling motivated to do much (i can't really blame him. this project has been dragging on quite a while, and even i'm not motivated to get it done. though i know we just have to get to the point of hanging drywall and it will breathe new life into us). he did build the framing for the tub this past weekend so that our plumber can finally come in and run the sewer lines, so that's some progress, even if it is small. i was really hoping to be doing drywall like a month ago, but as long as we're at that point by easter, i'll be happy. i definately want to be done this by summer because we want to enjoy summer this year instead of working through it like last summer. be able to sit outside on our deck, eat dinner, relax and play with HayHay. spend more time with family and swimming...
unfortunately i wasn't able to keep up with being oblivious to what day i'm on. but i'm trying to keep telling myself that any symptoms i may have don't really mean anything since i have them every cycle and AF shows up every cycle. so far, i think that's working. i don't have an urge to test like i do every cycle we have a shot, so that's good.
i'm trying my best to avoid testing until at least next tuesday as long as there isn't any spotting and AF hasn't shown up. i'm waiting until at least 12dpo to test because that's usually when any symptoms i may have had, start to disappear. i was pretty symptom-less last year when i got a BFP other than an obvious cramp around 6dpo, and i think i had those same cramps around the same time this time, but i'm sticking with not assuming anything so i don't get my hopes up.
i know i haven't been posting much about anything else lately, but DH always has a hard with winter around this time every year so he's not feeling motivated to do much (i can't really blame him. this project has been dragging on quite a while, and even i'm not motivated to get it done. though i know we just have to get to the point of hanging drywall and it will breathe new life into us). he did build the framing for the tub this past weekend so that our plumber can finally come in and run the sewer lines, so that's some progress, even if it is small. i was really hoping to be doing drywall like a month ago, but as long as we're at that point by easter, i'll be happy. i definately want to be done this by summer because we want to enjoy summer this year instead of working through it like last summer. be able to sit outside on our deck, eat dinner, relax and play with HayHay. spend more time with family and swimming...
Friday, February 15, 2013
ho hum
(cycle 30, day 18?, 3dpo?) - the question marks are because i'm not entirely sure and i dont' want to go look at my chart or count out the days because i'm trying really hard to just put it in the back of my mind so i don't obsess over it and then be sad when AF inevitably shows up...
anyway, same ol same ol. may have O'd a day later this cycle, but i'm not 100%. OPKs point to O on cd16 and CM/cramps point to O on cd15. i'll just expect her to show up on the same day as the last 5 months so i'm not taken off guard if she shows up a day early because i assumed O was on cd16, but also won't get upset if AF waits and shows up when she's supposed to if O was in fact on cd16. so i wait and see : ) we did get some good BDing in, so at least there's hope.
other than that, not much else to report on, the house is going very slowly right now, something i wish would pick up because i just want to get to drywall so i can feel like i'm helping. it will also cement the idea that we're actually going to finish it at some point this year, lol.
anyway, same ol same ol. may have O'd a day later this cycle, but i'm not 100%. OPKs point to O on cd16 and CM/cramps point to O on cd15. i'll just expect her to show up on the same day as the last 5 months so i'm not taken off guard if she shows up a day early because i assumed O was on cd16, but also won't get upset if AF waits and shows up when she's supposed to if O was in fact on cd16. so i wait and see : ) we did get some good BDing in, so at least there's hope.
other than that, not much else to report on, the house is going very slowly right now, something i wish would pick up because i just want to get to drywall so i can feel like i'm helping. it will also cement the idea that we're actually going to finish it at some point this year, lol.
Monday, February 4, 2013
spotting
(cycle 30, day 8)
i hate spotting, lol. i nomally stop by cd5 or 6 at the latest. i was still going strong on cd7. its just so annoying to deal with.
anway, starting my OPKs on friday and hoping DH is on board with trying this cycle and not too stressed to make a good go at it like last month. i'm really hoping it happens soon, like this month or next so that we don't have to actually take a break for a month or two to avoid having to put off going to ontario for xmas another year.
i'm also hoping we can really get moving on the addition because i feel like we're a month behind where i thought we'd be at this point (you know, after conceeding that we were fooling ourselves for orignally thinking we'd be done before xmas...). i was hoping we'd be at drywall by this point, but we're not. hopefully this weekend we put a massive dent in the vapour barrier dept and that our plumber doesn't take his sweet time and DH doesn't drag ass on running the water lines so we can actually get our vapour barrier and insulation inspection so we can actually move forward and do some drywalling. i could probably do a decent amount of work in the existing part of the house that needs work to keep things moving along, but i've had no motivation to and no time. hopefully that will change this weekend. i wanted to start working on it myself this passed weekend since DH was out of town, but things got away from me and i was too busy : ( ah well, it happens. but we really gotta buckle down on this... i'm tired of this dragging on and nothing getting done lately. it has to change, its not going to build itself.
i hate spotting, lol. i nomally stop by cd5 or 6 at the latest. i was still going strong on cd7. its just so annoying to deal with.
anway, starting my OPKs on friday and hoping DH is on board with trying this cycle and not too stressed to make a good go at it like last month. i'm really hoping it happens soon, like this month or next so that we don't have to actually take a break for a month or two to avoid having to put off going to ontario for xmas another year.
i'm also hoping we can really get moving on the addition because i feel like we're a month behind where i thought we'd be at this point (you know, after conceeding that we were fooling ourselves for orignally thinking we'd be done before xmas...). i was hoping we'd be at drywall by this point, but we're not. hopefully this weekend we put a massive dent in the vapour barrier dept and that our plumber doesn't take his sweet time and DH doesn't drag ass on running the water lines so we can actually get our vapour barrier and insulation inspection so we can actually move forward and do some drywalling. i could probably do a decent amount of work in the existing part of the house that needs work to keep things moving along, but i've had no motivation to and no time. hopefully that will change this weekend. i wanted to start working on it myself this passed weekend since DH was out of town, but things got away from me and i was too busy : ( ah well, it happens. but we really gotta buckle down on this... i'm tired of this dragging on and nothing getting done lately. it has to change, its not going to build itself.
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